As I was heading home tonight, I thought about why I started this page. I had a pretty decent life – fairly well-paying job, pretty cool place in New York City, nothing really negative pulling me down. Then I saw this video:
Now, yes, I know that Pro Wrestling is staged. But the point is if someone was interviewing me, would I describe my life the same way? Probably not. Granted there are things that I know I would like to avoid (multiple divorces, etc.) but generally speaking a lust for life. I realized that I had gotten to a point where I was coasting, not really making any effort to seriously improve my position, and basically settling for ‘good enough.’
I honestly watched that video probably… ok like 6 times. It’s not that long, and it’s pretty funny. And yes, I know that Ric Flair was cutting a promo for a wrestling event, and that is also a staged performance. But I couldn’t escape the fact that I had lost some of my passion for life. Some of my competitive spirit and edge. I felt it when I went to the gym and phoned in workouts while giving myself credit for at least making it there. I also knew that I would think about these things often enough to have an idea of some common themes that I kept identifying, but time and again I was not taking action to change them. And that is how I decided to upgrade things. Since I was 40, roughly mid-life-ish, I decided that I needed a mid-life upgrade. So I created this blog to force myself to think through the things that were nagging me and commit to executing a plan to create some sort of change. Since I am familiar with project management and the DoD system for acquiring systems and then conducting upgrades, I figured that I should be able to apply the same processes to my overall life.